Oedipus the King Journal 3-- Creative

--A diary entry from Oedipus

I have spent my whole life trying to keep the phrophecy from coming true. I have distanced myself rom Polybus to make sure that I would not kill him. that I would not kill my father. He loved me, deeply and I was his only child in his early years. How did all the effort I put into trying to keep him alive end wasted? All this time I tried to avoid my fate and yet my destiny followed me. Followed me because my parents were thinking the same thing when I was born. I wonder if they were looking after themselves or me.

I tried to hide the fact that I murdered Laius. It shouldn't have mattered at the time. He was of no significance to me, just another man that crossed my path. Creon was trying to put the blame on me but I was able to banish him . Now I feel like I need to banish myself.

I did not know my real father. I knew a man that loved me and that cared for me, but he was not my father. Do I know him if what I knew him as was incorrect? He is dead now, so is my real father. My parents, they gave me away and called for my death to avoid the prophicies. I was left tied up in a forest and yet I did not die. How have I lived through it all? How, after so much effort has the prophicy still come true? Not only have I tried to avoid it but my father has as well.

My thoughts are scattered tonight. I do not know what is left. I have or had or have it all. Power, confidence, father, wife. What is left for me?